leap of faith

It is scary to share your passion. I am quite secure in what I like and how I make it happen, but there are those who disagree. For every person I share this with, there is a new opinion. Some like everything, some like nothing, but mostly it is somewhere in between.

The first conventions that I ran games at I was nervous. I don’t run games for strangers (well, at least I didn’t used to), I’ve always just played with family, and a few scattered friends. I find it easier to fail in front of family, they are more forgiving usually. In front of strangers, I fumble over rules, concepts, and if I am taken off guard by something it takes me a moment to recover.

I do not let my deep seated fear of disappointment stop me from trying though. In fact, I think this is my biggest accomplishment! Sure, I want the game to go well, and that is my ultimate goal, but when I look back I see myself overcoming fears. Stepping out and presenting what I find exciting and allowing the risk of someone else not liking it is confidence building.

Let me give you a piece of advice…you’ll never be ready. There are still monsters to build, characters to tweak, and maps to put together, but if you move forward anyway, it will work out in the end. Each time you get a bit more comfortable and confident. just take that leap of faith and trust that everyone is there to have a good time.

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