2 Steps forward, 1 step back

I have been running games for many years now (still a long way from mastery), but even I get moments where I don’t feel good enough. When preparing for adventures, I get nervous that I do not know the rules or scenarios well. I can get in my head as if it were the first time I had ever done this.

Preparing for another convention and I find myself staring at my shelf. The many adventures that hold themselves there do not draw my attention. I have a homebrew adventure that I have to get ready for later that also does not speak to me. I am beginning to think I’ve lost my momentum. How do I get my drive back?

One foot in front of the other. This is the best way forward. Eventually I’ll get back on track and start to feel like I know what I’m doing again. A few successful runs and all will be well. Or so I tell myself. Seriously though, getting excited about running one-shots again is actually difficult. The first step is reading, then re-reading the adventures I’m thinking of doing. I have to allow myself time to think through it and build from there (maybe even build some new pre-generated characters).

I love talking about roleplaying, I love meeting new people and seeing old friends, and I love providing opportunities for others to play and have fun. Remembering why I take the time to read, prepare, and run these games helps me move forward…one step at a time.